Okay so the Super Bowl and getting sick through me off this week... HOWEVER, I did not gain any weight and I maintained the 10lbs I have lost. Which is an improvement in itself.
Today I started my work out again, on the Kinect because it is cold as hell out there and I don't have the proper super cold weather clothing. I feel better after having worked out, because I almost opted for a nap. My son has been sick also so sleep has been little.. :) But I forget how good I feel when I do work out. Go me!
Monday, February 13, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Saturday Weigh-In
I've had a lot going on Thursday and yesterday and although I didn't work out I still ate well and did house work. So, as of this morning I am 268lbs, that's 11lbs total and 7 from last Saturday.
I am probably going to work out super hard today.
I am probably going to work out super hard today.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Eye opening
I watched my 600lb life tonight. Although I am not quiet that large, for me I was almost at 300lbs. And that is scary. I was already morbidly obese. I wish I could just blink and be healthy, but I realize it is going to take hard work and time. Lot's of time.
I have a lot of things that bother me being overweight. I feel like it's stopping me from getting a job, not that I'm not qualified but I'm fat and not confident. I feel like people watch me, or judge me, especially when I go out in my yoga pants with my hair all a wreck. I want people to look at me for who I am, inside, not who I am on the outside.
I also fear that when I get to my healthy weight, I will still think of myself as fat and restrict myself more than I need to. Hell I'm so afraid now that I feel like I've become a slave to the scales. I know everybody has told me not to. But I've done that, and it got me to where I am now. I'd rather gain a pound or two and be able to nip it right then and there than to gain 10.
I'm also afraid of excess skin. I hope that my skin bounces back, but considering how many times I have gone up and down. I have a lot of fears. I want my life to be different. I want to beskinny healthy.
At times I've wondered if something is wrong, I only gained 8-10lbs while I was pregnant and was 233 when I delivered, a little over a year ago. I've had my thyroid checked ,after suffering from deep depression, and it was fine. I've usually been able to maintain my weight, most of my life, but to pack on 50lbs in a year kinda scares me. I'm having to fight tooth and nail just to get that weight off, for good. I wish I could just get a big jump start on my diet, but I know there are no miracles, but a girl can dream. I want so deeply to be a success story.
Once again, I apologize for post being so disarray. I've always wrote as my mind flowed, and it rarely makes sense to others, but it is how I write. I realize I am mostly talking to myself anyway.
I am going to make some tea and log off for the night.
Beverlee
I have a lot of things that bother me being overweight. I feel like it's stopping me from getting a job, not that I'm not qualified but I'm fat and not confident. I feel like people watch me, or judge me, especially when I go out in my yoga pants with my hair all a wreck. I want people to look at me for who I am, inside, not who I am on the outside.
I also fear that when I get to my healthy weight, I will still think of myself as fat and restrict myself more than I need to. Hell I'm so afraid now that I feel like I've become a slave to the scales. I know everybody has told me not to. But I've done that, and it got me to where I am now. I'd rather gain a pound or two and be able to nip it right then and there than to gain 10.
I'm also afraid of excess skin. I hope that my skin bounces back, but considering how many times I have gone up and down. I have a lot of fears. I want my life to be different. I want to be
At times I've wondered if something is wrong, I only gained 8-10lbs while I was pregnant and was 233 when I delivered, a little over a year ago. I've had my thyroid checked ,after suffering from deep depression, and it was fine. I've usually been able to maintain my weight, most of my life, but to pack on 50lbs in a year kinda scares me. I'm having to fight tooth and nail just to get that weight off, for good. I wish I could just get a big jump start on my diet, but I know there are no miracles, but a girl can dream. I want so deeply to be a success story.
Once again, I apologize for post being so disarray. I've always wrote as my mind flowed, and it rarely makes sense to others, but it is how I write. I realize I am mostly talking to myself anyway.
I am going to make some tea and log off for the night.
Beverlee
Okay I didn't take my measurement's before I started so I am taking them now..
Hips: 52
Waist: 41 (my tummy is 45 tho)
Thigh: 31 (omg)
Chest: 45
Arms: 17
So hopefully, once I lost 10 more lbs I will now have a record of how many inches I have lost.. I know I have already lost some as I can see it. :)
Hips: 52
Waist: 41 (my tummy is 45 tho)
Thigh: 31 (omg)
Chest: 45
Arms: 17
So hopefully, once I lost 10 more lbs I will now have a record of how many inches I have lost.. I know I have already lost some as I can see it. :)
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Mini Goal Reached!!!
I am finally down 10 lbs! I have gotten rid of those, (not lost) because they aren't coming back! It feels so awesome to see progress, and feel progress! I don't really feel like it's the same. I've been doing this long enough now to make it a habit. It may sound silly, but I already feel healthy. Moving every single day, eating right, eating portions, giving my body the nutrients it needs!
I don't really crave sweets, unless you count Stevia and my Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter. I use to eat a pint of Ben & Jerry's every night or every other night. I've not done that in 3 weeks... I just kept pushing it saying I can have it in another day or two, then when that got here, I'd say another day again till it turned into 3 weeks and I don't really even want it.
I've never been a real soda drinker, I drink 4-6 liters of water every single day. I just recently started adding ACV to the liters. It's not that bad, but I plan on getting some Bragg ACV because it has the mother in it.
So here is to 10lbs closer to my goal!
:)
I don't really crave sweets, unless you count Stevia and my Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter. I use to eat a pint of Ben & Jerry's every night or every other night. I've not done that in 3 weeks... I just kept pushing it saying I can have it in another day or two, then when that got here, I'd say another day again till it turned into 3 weeks and I don't really even want it.
I've never been a real soda drinker, I drink 4-6 liters of water every single day. I just recently started adding ACV to the liters. It's not that bad, but I plan on getting some Bragg ACV because it has the mother in it.
So here is to 10lbs closer to my goal!
:)
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