I only did a mile walk yesterday but I am finally down to 270, I took some pictures and I can see a major difference in my appearance. I've got a lot on my mind today and I am going to just do some strength training, I may do some running this evening or tonight if I just really need to clear my mind.

I'd also like to get up to losing 5lbs a week, although I am not complaining at the 2.6 lbs a week I just know I can do better. I'm considering starting to eat clean and I've REALLY got to get my calorie intake up, after I eat my steel-cut oats in the morning I'm just usually not that hungry the rest of the day. So maybe I need to work out harder.

I also want to say, I do not promote anorexia, I don't mean to eat such little calories my body just isn't hungry. I've been overweight my entire life, I've been teased and picked on. What I am promoting is losing weight the healthy way, I am not doing this as a "thinspo" I am doing this to get strong, and fit for my child and mostly myself.

I want people to finally see me and judge me for who I really am, not the fat lazy girl. I also feel like I get picked last for job's because of my appearance and weight. I've always considered myself pretty, without make up, but I've also always been fat. A lot of people don't guess my actual weight because I carry it so well.

I am going to go work out for a bit...