I am very aggravated this morning. I haven't been regular either so that may be part of my issue, but my scales said 275 today. I've been working out every day, except yesterday, which may be my issue. I am also trying to consume more calories, probably 1100 a day... which I usually only eat 700 a day, I know it sounds weird for my weight. I just got back from a run I pushed myself to run .5 miles and then walked another mile just because I felt guilty for not being able to run more.
I am so tired of living like this, fat and icky. I'm doing everything I can, I eat steel-cut oats every morning for breakfast with PB in them for protein, I also have a green smoothie every day. I even drink a gallon of water every day, sometimes more. I am even trying to make breakfast my biggest meal and then have my small smoothie for dinner. I would like to believe I am gaining muscle because everything fits better despite the weight gain, but I've also heard that is pure BS. Ultimately I'd like to get down to 150, unless I had muscle and looked good at a higher or lower weight.
I can do this, and I just don't need to give up. I just need to keep pushing harder and harder. I will probably work out again today on the kinect just because I feel like I've failed a bit. I wish I had some encouragement.
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